Journey Coaching

“I cannot honestly believe that he is reacting in maliciousness.”

It’s the sentence I’ve repeated to myself over and over again—out loud, in quiet moments, and in journal entries that no one else will read.

Because I can’t find it in myself to see him in that light.

I’ve seen hate before. I’ve seen true vindictiveness, intentional harm, and the kind of evil that leaves a mark on your soul. I’ve felt what it’s like to be on the receiving end of cruelty, manipulation, and disregard. And in those moments, I always knew to protect myself. To throw up walls. To run.

But this? This was different. I didn’t see it coming. I still don’t know exactly what happened, or why it unfolded the way it did. The silence. The rejection. The rewriting of our story. The subtle but devastating isolation. The psychological toll of being erased in spaces where I once mattered.

And yet… I want to respond in kindness.
Not in “kind.”
Not in retaliation.
Not in bitterness.

Kindness. The kind that helps me sleep at night. The kind that lets me hold my head high even when people are whispering behind my back. The kind that keeps me grounded when the pressure to harden is louder than the call to heal.
The kind that reminds me who I am—and who I still want to be.

Today, I held the printed proof of my book, Burned, Blocked, and Better Than Ever: A Raw Journey of Healing, in my hands.
Tears rolled down my cheeks.

Because this—this book—is the physical evidence of a promise I made to myself.
A promise to grow.
A promise to keep my heart soft but guarded.
A promise to be more.

More than what I was told I should be.
More than what others expect me to be.
More than I ever imagined possible.

I.
I am just.
I am just overwhelmed.
I am overwhelmed by how deeply I want to live a life of truth.
And I am overwhelmed by how far I’ve come.

This book is more than words on paper—it is my story stitched together with pain, honesty, and healing. It is a declaration that even if you’ve been burned, blocked, or abandoned—you can become better than ever. It’s a reminder that you don’t need to harden to heal. You don’t need to mirror harm to feel powerful. You don’t need revenge to feel seen.

You just need truth.
Because gossip loses its power when truth shows up.
Because bitterness fades when forgiveness leads.
Because your heart is still worth protecting—but not at the cost of your softness.

I’m sure I’ve failed in a million ways.
And I’m sure I’ll fail again.

But I want to be true.
I want to live aligned.
And I want to create connection, even when my instinct is to disconnect.

So here’s to the journey.
Here’s to Burned, Blocked, and Better Than Ever—for anyone who’s ever been left out, shut down, or made to feel less-than. This is for you.

Let’s keep healing. Let’s keep telling the truth. Let’s keep becoming.

With so much love,

xoxoxox – j